shifting ^^

talk about what you do to make you happy.
geeeez, its like this year 2009, can't get any better!

Last year, it was a sudden decision to resign from a steady job i had and take a risk. I did it because i felt a lot of pressure and stress came all along that gruesome year. I thought that last year was a steady one, until I decided to make a move (one that I can say one of the biggest decisions I made).

2009 I was lucky to have a job in a hospital here in Tarlac. A private hospital that caters around 100 plus bed capacity. This is a good chance for me to start things and have a new life. I know not to expect anything. Just be me and make a change.

Well, it wasn't that easy. I had to go along the starting process. My job as a nurse is a sudden shift for me. I was just a girl who lived the simple life. I mean, it was all easy way back in Manila. My former job was just to sit, listen, relax, face the computer and answer phone calls all day este all night long. Seriously, that was tiring! No sleep, no time to eat. I lost around 5lbs way back then. I thought that if I'd go home in Tarlac, I'd be less miserable. How come I was miserable? Well, truth is, my x boyfriend and i still see each other in that same office. We worked in one company. It was hard seeing each other when it makes no sense at all. We're not together anymore but we literally see each other. I admit, everyday I tortured myself.. and seeing him around hard to endure but i did... yey me! I really have to move on.

Here, I have my family, my friends, my bestfriend chi, but I don't know if I will get a job in tarlac. So, that was not planned.

Btw, before i resigned and change location, i really really really prayed hard... as hard as i could. ... just to tell God that I am ready to take the risk. I am willing to change my life.

My first days as a nurse was not a very good experience at all. I was fortunately assigned in the ICU, well there are two sides of a coin, there is an advantage and disadvantage. An icu nurse? me? nah, it was just a rotation. :D That experience was really really tiring, took all the energy out of me. Literally, it was all man power, definitely just you and the patients. If it gets toxic, it was hell scary because like wat i experienced, one patient is dying, raised a code, then on the other bed, another patient is having a seizure. I was in shock! In some nights, before I sleep, I curl up to my bed and ask myself, "do i really want to be a nurse?" hahaha

Those were the first months of Lougie nurse. ahahaha

Then i got over it. :D

10 months later..
oct 2009, today!

I was assigned to the station I ward. Hell, it was a big shift. you know why?
first: Station I means single duty. what the heck is that? single duty as in I will have no help, it will just be me and the patients. geeeez. what a big big big responsibility. I am just a newbie hey! I need help. But, I had to accept it. It became a challege. :D
second: The station I is a secluded, isolated place. I mean hey they will never see my beauty. nah, kidding. :D the station I is far away from people. geeeez. (wala akong makausap kundi patiente at ung aid ko) ahehe
third: I never wanted to be on a single duty. I need help. More nurses more help less complications less mistakes

This is me now, lets just say, everyday is a learning experience for me. :D
Everyday, i get scolded from doing something wrong then I learn, and never do it again.:D
Everyday, i know is a challenge.
Everyday, i just pray to have less census. ahahhaha
less patients, less work, less toxic the shift is. :D


right now, it got me thinking...
this might not be the job that i wished when i was young.
this might not be the job that will make big money.
this might not be the job that will make life easier for me.

however, this might be a stepping stone to a good life, pouring with milk and honey. ahehe ^^